i don't think i ever uploaded this here and i need to show it to some people but i don't want to send them to my tumblr so here you go... tada...... also some people were asking about my fire/gray mythos/headcanons so here they are!!!
fireheart realizing he’s in love with his best friend just as graystripe starts seeing silverstream
fireheart taking care of graystripe after silverstream’s death and spending long nights talking and sharing tongues with him; not with any ulterior motives, he’s just trying his absolute best to make graystripe smile again
graystripe consequently realizing that he’s been in love with his best friend for a long, long time but it’s too much, way too much to deal with alongside his grief and while he did love silverstream it was a different kind of love, something that could never have been as constant and grounding and almost overwhelming as how he feels about fireheart
graystripe leaving for riverclan to give his kits a better life and to get away from his best friend before he does something stupid and fucks things up between them forever because there’s no way fireheart could ever feel the same way back, right? (wrong)
fireheart being absolutely heartbroken because he not only lost his best friend, he feels like he wasn’t a good enough reason for graystripe to want to stay behind and it hurts for a long, long time
fireheart and graystripe reuniting and suddenly sandstorm is in the picture and fireheart feels so, so selfish because sandstorm is wonderful but what he felt for graystripe never really went away and he’s not sure it ever will and he can’t possibly choose just one of them
fireheart and graystripe spending time together and they’re happy, they really are, but neither of them are brave enough to make the first move and there are awkward late night hunting patrols made up of just the two of them and stilted moments spent alone that they both cherish and beat themselves up over in equal measure
graystripe being taken away by twolegs and firestar hating himself because why didn’t he say something, anything, and now he’s never going to see him again and he was such a fucking idiot
graystripe fighting tooth and nail to get back to his best friend and tell him that he loves him because he’s determined, now, and he’s been a coward for far too long to deny how he feels any longer
graystripe meeting milly and one day it just slips out, just like it did with silverstream, but milly understands, and she’s so much more patient and understanding about the fact that he’ll love fireheart in a different way than he’ll ever love her than graystripe feels like he deserves
firestar and graystripe meeting again at the clans’ new home at the lake, spending long nights in the leader’s den just talking and sharing tongues and catching up to each other and being so glad just to be in each other’s company and one day it just slips out of firestar’s mouth, before graystripe has the chance to say anything, and neither of them can stop smiling and sharing secret looks for days despite the guilt sitting heavy in their hearts because he loves me back, he always has, and why didn’t we say anything sooner?
sandstorm and milly bonding over their situations and milly helping sandstorm through it
sandstorm and milly having their own little fling to the side, just a bit, because why not? firestar and graystripe find out and are far more surprised about it than they have any reason to be and sandstorm teases them about the look of shock on both of their faces for moons afterwards
firestar and graystripe and milly and sandstorm being a big, happy (if not a little unconventional) family and if anyone in thunderclan ever finds out or has any beef to pick, they don’t dare to say it because things have been this way for far too long for them to challenge it